Mommy blues

Although there are hormones at play after you deliver a child, I think many of the emotions are the same for "home-grown" and adoptive moms.  Specifically, the post-baby blues.  For those who deliver, it's often called post-partum depression.  In the adoptive world, it's often called the post-adoption blues.  I understand the physiological reason behind each is different, but I recognize it exists for both types of moms. 
Why?  Because I have it.
Of course, I am elated to have Sammy home.  He is the single best thing that has ever happened to me.  He is my center, he is literally my sun and I am pulled to him with a force greater than gravity.  But there is something about the finality of the adoption, and the prospect of caring for this little package of perfection than seems overwhelming and incomprehensible.  I find myself barely having the energy for work during the day and Sam at night.  I find myself having little to no concentration.  I'm not doing the things I used to enjoy.  I'm sad, a lot, especially when I'm not with Sam.  I'm not taking care of myself.  Most weekends it's 12 noon before I even change out of PJs and forget about taking a shower.  I am consumed with Sam, but have no energy for anything else.  I know this happens to a lot of moms during the first few months because I've talked to them about it.
I feel helpless at times.  I feel overwhelmed.  I know being the sole income now (G is a SAHD) is also adding to my feelings of stress and anxiety.
I feel like I should just "snap out of it" but understand its more complex.
So, I have taken the drastic step of seeing a shrink.  And you know what?  Its really helping.  Don't get me wrong, he wasn't able to give me a "magically all better" pill, despite my begging and pleading.  But he is able to make me understand I'm not alone and THIS IS COMPLETELY NORMAL and many, many mommies are feeling the same way.
I need to take more me time.  I need to get back into regular meditation and yoga to reduce my stress.  I need to get back into exercise to increase my endorphines.  And I need to not be so hard on myself.

What have you done/what are you doing to help you with the emotional rollercoaster of being a mom?

Who am I?

As I sit this morning and watch my son "discover" everything(he is 9 weeks old)and figure out who he is, I ask my self WHO AM I? Sometimes, ok ..all the time...we as parents get lost in the shuffle, doing day to day tasks for everyone else and not taking the time for ourselves. As my husband came in last night and kissed the girls and picked up our son, I was the last to be greeted. It is not intentional, it is just the way it is right now as I am a "MOM". Another mom told me the other day, "you will always be last from now on, thats what happens when you become a mom". Let me tell you sister, NO WAY! I am a wife, mom,daughter, friend, sister, cousin, cook, housekeeper, accountant, chauffeur, therapist(although not licensed)and the list goes on, but before any of this, I was ME! Me,the woman that loves to exercise and cook healthy meals(which I haven't done in ages), loves playing my guitar and taking pictures, loves hiking in the dunes, watching old movies and spending time with my girlfriends (all of which I would feel guilty for now), a happy, upbeat person full of energy. This is starting to sound like a personal ad but you get the point. So today October 1st, I am finding the old ME, I am taking the time to do the things I love , one thing, one day at a time. What can you do to reclaim yourself?

Today I did 30 minutes of Cardio and actually sat and ate breakfast!